096: My Top 10 Albums For 2011

Picking only 10 albums sucks, because there are too many great albums out there. It's tough, but I manage to choose 10 that I really dig. Here goes:

10

LMFAO - Sorry For Party Rocking

9

Yellowcard - When You're Through Thinking, Say Yes

8

The Get Up Kids - There Are Rules

7

Protest The Hero - Scurrilous

6

Rise Against - Endgame

5

Florence and the Machine - Ceremonials

4

Mastodon - The Hunter

3

Times of Grace - The Hymn of a Broken Man

2

Death Cab for Cutie - Codes and Keys

1

August Burns Red - Leveler

The following are worth mentioning:

Arch Enemy - Khaos Legions

Mogwai - Hardcore Will Never Die, But You Will

Funeral for a Friend - Welcome Home Armageddon

095: Not Just Another Day

It was a wonderful day, cooling and windy, but nonetheless, wonderful, without any hint of rain. You and yours friends or loved ones were spending some precious moment together. It was great to finally get some free time to relax after countless days of keeping up with schedule, running around to meet deadline, and all those boring stuff you did at work.

You were probably hanging out with your friends at a cafe, having a sip of coffee and savoring those sinful but divine cheesecake that was topped with some chocolate sauce and a half-sliced piece of strawberry. When the cake entered your mouth and landed on the tip of your tongue, you thought, "ooohhh, this is life". Great ambience, awesome friends, mouthwatering desserts, what else can you ask for?

The day was going great for awhile, but something was diverting your attention. At the far corner of your eye, you noticed a van. You turned to take a glimpse at it, because it was hauntingly beautiful. A van with transparent glasses, where you can see the content of the vehicle. Flowers were arranged around a big box, and you thought it belongs to a florist. Then you realized that the box was actually... a coffin.

That's when you were reminded that life is short. Too short that it will not even last a hundred years (unless you're one of those few lucky (or cursed) ones). You were reminded repeatedly about your mortality. Some days you just shrugged it off, and some days you reflect on your life. Today is not the day that you just sweep it under the rug. "What have I done so far in my life? Is this what I want? Have I achieved my dreams? Will I be remembered when I die?". Probably others will ask, "What will happen to my Facebook account? Will they post condolences on my wall? Who will manage my account to add old friends that I did not manage to accept? Will my blog be a relic for people to remember me by?".

This is cliche, but you never know when you will die. You wondered if you have fulfilled your dreams and responsibilities. Will it even matter? You're dead, and you only need to worry about what happen after your death. Will you become a ghost? Will you be facing God? Will you be in heaven or hell? Will your soul be transferred to another universe or dimension? Will you even realize that you're dead?

But do we even want to mull over it? It does gives me the chills. I don't want to die. I want to be immortal and still look like I'm 21. Wistful thinking, but I hope it will happen. If I'm still going to die, at least create the cure to growing older, please?

094: No Revolution

It's kind of overdue to write about this now, and I have so many things to say. But I'll make it short.

I was, and still, frustrated with the General Elections results. What the hell man? Why are you people afraid to vote for another? Why do you still believe that your vote is not secret? Why listen to hearsay? Those pakcik/apek/mamak from coffeeshop got PhD is it? Why so fucking stupid?! I believe the people who voted for the ruling party were old retarded fucks. Of course they don't care, they are going to die soon!

2016? No hope lah. You people are fucked already. Not the kind of fuck that you guys get from your spouse/gf/bf, etc, but the kind of fuck that you get from foreign trash that raped you from the back (read: assfuck).

I really need to get out of this forsaken country...

Note: No offence to my foreign friends. If you're in my list, then you're good. :-D

093: London Calling

So here I am in London... It's almost 9 A.M. here, and I need to shower. It was cold last night when I arrived. Let's see if it's that cold during the day.

092: WTF Blogger / Multiply??!!

This is definately stupid. You see, I linked up my Blogspot and Multiply together, so that everytime I post something in Blogger, Multiply will import it. It worked well so far, no complaints. But I did not expect it to import posts from my 2nd blog too!

What was the 2nd blog for? Let me explain. I had an assignment, and I must create a blog for it. I gotta write over the course of a few weeks, before submitting the link to my lecturer. It's all done now. But today, I logged in to Multiply (hell, I have not been logging in for a long time!) And suddenly, I saw all the post for that blog in my Multiply page! Oh, the horror!!! I'm never going to use my personal account for assignments again!

Anyway, I have not been blogging for months! I have nothing to share now, because I'm drained. It's been tiring, I need a holiday..

Wait, I AM going for a holiday in two weeks! Woohoooo!!!!!

091: Another New Beginning

2010 was a great year. Well, it may not be all smooth sailing, but it was an enriching year.

Earlier this year (or should I say last year), I was optimistic about what the year will bring me. I was close with a woman whom I fell for, spent most of the time together, stayed over her place and have quality time with her. We kinda shared many things in common.

Two weeks after my birthday, she decided to severe all ties, and I was lost. I was kind of depressed, and kept thinking about how to amend things. But it was really the end, and there was nothing I could do to prevent it.

Every dark clouds have a silver lining though. A couple of month after that, I was offered a new job. If she was still around, I would not have survived in this new company. You see, when you start on a new job, you need full concentration and no distraction. She used to call me every few hours, and that would have distracted me. So I left the company that I have been with for three years, where I did not received any salary increment or bonus. It was stupidity on my part for staying that long.

The new job was not merciful. It was chaotic, messy, and.. stressful? But I liked it. All my previous jobs were too easy for me, to the extend of insulting my intelligence. I have more responsibilities in that new job. The slightest mistake will cause the whole office to panic and start thinking of ways to resolve the issues. We ended up doing overtime, and getting back home late. Not helping either when you were preparing for your graduation project. I did finish my project though, and when the day for the presentation came, I was prepared. I even got an ‘A’ for it. It’s either I was lucky, or I’m really that damn smart.

Despite the piling workload, I was still prepared to further my education. A few months after getting my results, I registered for a Bachelor’s degree. Who would have thought that I would be doing a degree? I shouldn’t be gloating though. I’m just in the second term now, and there are still so much to do. Not forgetting that I have four assignments due soon, and I have yet to get started.

Back to the new job. It was good. Better salary. I even received a bonus! I’m still finding another job though. I need to do something I like. I studied mass communications for a reason. I want a job related to my field of study. I have to believe that I can get it this year.

2010 have been good to me. I need to believe that 2011 will be much better. Need. I will dispel any negativity and believe. Faith is all I have now.

These are the two words that I need to hold on to: Faith and Believe.