007: I'm Not Going Out Tonight Because It's Raining Heavily, But It Won't Stop My Money From Depleting

Saturday, February 28, 2009

I want to get a T-shirt by a band called The Dillinger Escape Plan. It's hard to get it in Singapore. So I'm going to order it via the Internet. I don't have to get out of my house to get it. I can just lie on my bed, click on a few buttons, and voila! I'll have it in a week or less.

Seriously, I have to cut down on my spendings. I need to use alot of money in April, and I can't keep spending like this. This March will be a bad month for me (financially). I need to buy some new clothing, so I could at least score on appearance if i get an interview to a new job. I can't be going to interviews with my Arch Enemy T-shirt and tattered denim. Not to mention that I need to clear the acne that have reappeared out of nowhere. Fuck, why can't it stop? I'm 24!!! I can't be going to the skin centre every 2 months and rely on Doxycycline, Tretinoin, Benzoyl Peroxide and lots of acne patch all my fuckin life!!!

Yes, I'm looking for a new job. I can't stick around with my current job anymore. No chance for me to progress, and given the current crisis, it's much harder. And the pay is shitty!! How am I going to own a car, a private apartment, and get married with that kind of salary? (Not that I want to get married soon, but need to plan ya know) Should have find a better job when the economy was good. The kind of job that I want now is different from what I'm doing, so will be very hard to nail it. Looking forward to the Career Fair in March. Wooooohooooo!!!

Anyway, I heard news that the Merlion's head has 'disappeared', due to lightning. I don't know whether it's true. The online news portal is not updated yet. Will check the papers tomorrow.

006: Creative LCD Screen is Much More Expensive Than My Handphone Touch Screen LCD

Monday, February 23, 2009

Okay, the truth is, I don't know how much it will cost to repair my phone's LCD touch screen if it's spoilt. But $160 for an mp3 LCD screen? Ridiculous. I have submitted my displeasure to them online (and i'm not sure if i filled in the complaint in the correct form, their website is confusing), and I hope to get a reply soon.

Anyway, I'm having one of those shitty days again. Have you ever felt that you are always one step behind in almost everything? Like when you want to get that stupid limited edition shoes, someone beats you to the last piece. That kind of one step behind. It's happening again to me (no, it's not shoes).

Why must it always happen to me? Am i too slow? No, I don't think so. If I were to rush, I would be seen as desperate. Well, i may be. But not that desperate.

Some asked me to believe in fate. If you're fated to have something, you will get it. I do believe in it. And I believe I can change it too. If we really want it, we try to get it. If I'm not fated to be rich, I'll try to get rich. If i try really really hard, maybe I'll have my dreams come true.

God is not cruel. He will answer your prayers if you try hard enough. I'm sick of people blaming fate for the shitty life that they have. Maybe they need to lose their loved ones, their money, their house, etc. Then they will know what shitty really is.

Sometimes I do have doubts, and had my faith shaken a bit. Now is that time.

Think I need to sleep it off.

005: Audience of One by Rise Against

Friday, February 20, 2009

Rise Against is in my list of artists who wrote beautiful and powerful lyrics. This one is from their latest album. I just can't resist putting it here.


I can still remember
The words and what they meant
As we etched them with our fingers
In years of wet cement
The days blurred into each other
Though everything seemed clear
We cruised along at half speed
But then we shifted gears

We ran like vampires from a thousand burning suns
But even then we should have stayed

But we ran away
Now all my friends are gone
Maybe we've outgrown all the things that we once loved
But what are we running from?
A show of hands from those in this audience of one
Where have they gone?

Identities assume us
As nine and five add up
Synchronizing watches
To the seconds that we lost
I looked up and saw you
I know that you saw me
We froze but for a moment
In empathy

I brought down the sky for you but all you did was shrug
You gave my emptiness a name

We're all ok, until the day we're not
The surface shines, while the inside rots
We raced the sunset and we almost won
We slammed the brakes, but the wheels went on

004: Getting In a Car Crash Makes Me Fall In Love Again With Corrinne May

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Would you go crazy if your mp3 player gets run over by a car?

I'm going crazy right now. My beloved 2 months old Creative Zen X-Fi was ran over by some car. I dropped it in the middle of the road and don't realised it until I was halfway walking to the interchange. I panicked when I couldn't find my player, and traced back my steps.

I was relieved at first when I saw it on the road. But damn, the LCD screen cracked, and I can't see a thing. I can still listen to it though, and the only album that I am able to listen to right now is Safe In A Crazy World by Corrinne May (yes, I DO listen to Corrinne May, she's great).

*sigh* Now I need to find the time to send it to Creative for repairs. I know it won't be free. Accidents are not covered by warranty right? Or maybe I could tell them it suddenly cracked? :-P

I need some heavy, hardcore music on a busy day outside. Looks like I have to make do with Corrinne for now.

003: Ex-Con

Monday, February 16, 2009

Something interesting happened just now. I was walking towards a supermarket when a man (probably in his thirties) approached me.

He: I'm sorry bang to bother you, i'd like to ask a favour.
Me: (Nodding)
He: Can i have a stick of cigarette? I'm so stressed out now.
Me: (Nodding and pulling out my pack of fags)
He: It's been a long day. I have just been released for three weeks now, and i just got a job as a car-washer through the interview earlier. My cousin (or maybe friend, i forgot) was supposed to....
Me: (Interrupts) Do you have a lighter? (Hold out my lighter)
He: No, thank you. (Continues) My cousin (or friend) was supposed to fetch me but he's still not here. I've been waiting for somebody to save my life. Could you spare me a dollar for my bus ride home?
Me: (Smilling and reach my pocket)
He: Thank you very much. It's so difficult... (Blah blah blah)
Me: (Smiled and left)

I didn't expect this from an ex-con. I was expecting some gung-ho talk (and I'd definately shove my lighter in his arse and light up). Okay, don't tell me those "Never judge a book by its cover" bullshit. We are always judging people, even though we are no angel ourselves. If he is really changing into a new leaf, then I hope God will be with him.

002: Lazy

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

I'm being lazy right now. Tomorrow will be my exam, and i'm still in front of this screen typing this text. Keep telling myself, "in awhile".

That 'awhile' didn't come. Okay, I admit it. I'm a slave of procrastination. I insist on relaxing first before starting to stress out on that Advertising & Promotions notes. It is now laying comfortably inside my cupboard, telling me to let it sleep first before i start flipping its pages violently (which i usually do in order to find the desired page faster).

I'm not the only one though. I believe there are millions of others who are going to sit on something important and still not getting started on things that they are supposed to do. Maybe even YOU.

But why do we keep delaying ourselves? Why we choose Heaven first, when we know we will go to Hell later?

Because we are a bunch of rebellious creatures. And we love challenges. It is challenging to run through over a hundred pages of text and memorizing 10 chapters in less than 5 hours. Not forgetting the powerpoint slides and additional notes that we wrote while listening to the lecturer's explanation of this and that.

We also love the eye bags that we acquire the next morning. To show off to the others that we were, indeed, studying, only to realise that these people who you are trying to impress also have that ugly thing under their eyes.

For me, I love to see the surpise look on their faces when i got a better grade than them, considering they spend more hours and days than me and only get mediocre results. :-D

Okay Iqbal, stop bragging and start studying.

001: Comeback Kid

Monday, February 9, 2009

Wooooohooooooo, I'm Back!!!

Back from where you may ask. Well, this is not my first blog. Probably my fourth.

But the first after 4 years (Yeah, that long).

Maybe some of you are wondering, "why bother?"

Well, i came across my old (and probably my first) blog. Can't believe my eyes when i saw it.

After many years, Blogspot still have not pull it down. Tried to log in but damn, forgot my password. And they sent my password to an email address which was already 'extinct' when i tried to retrieve it.

I had a good laugh, giggled and cover my face like a girl when i read it. It was created when i was 16. It was filled with high dosage of puberty and teenage angst.

I hope to laugh at myself again in another 5 years.

No, i'm not creating this page to follow the " trend" that kids follow nowadays.

I'm here to re-invent.

Reinvent myself.

Reinvent DaemonChylde...